I’m Not Ready

When I was a child, I loved playing with Barbie dolls. I enjoyed dressing them and attempting to comb their hair the way I saw my mom combing mine. I tried braiding, twisting, and even using hair balls. I remember one Christmas, my mom purchased me a doll that was taller than the traditional Barbie doll. When the doll moved, it appeared that her eyelids would close, as if she was blinking. That was UH-mazing!

My dolls were special to me. Although I did not create them myself, they were mine because they were purchased for me. I could dress them the way that I felt. I didn’t want to share them with anyone and when I misplaced one of them, or left one at a relative’s house – it was a problem. I needed my baby dolls. They kept me company in my “play” world at home.

Do you know that we are more precious to God than my baby dolls were to me? Sure, God made angels, but He wanted something specifically designed the way He desired.

He wanted something that looked like him:

Genesis 1:27 (NKJV)
So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.

He wanted something that He could give some of His knowledge, to think like Him.

Proverbs 2:6 (NKJV)
For the Lord gives wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding;

He wanted something He could breathe his breath into; and thus – we were born, fearfully and wonderfully, we were created.

Genesis 2:7 (NKJV)
And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.

We were made to be like our Father – we are His children. Some of us He created with blonde hair and blue eyes. Some He created with brown hair and brown eyes. Some short and some tall in stature; but we were designed just as He desired.

Isaiah 43:7 (NKJV)
Everyone who is called by My name, Whom I have created for My glory; I have formed him, yes, I have made him.

Just as my tall doll could open/close her eyes, which was quite the opposite of the popular Barbie dolls, God decided which special things (gifts) some of His children would have as well. Some have an uncanny ability to sing. Others are great with managing business. Some have athletic abilities like none other. And there are some who have multiple gifts.

Then our loving Father placed purpose in our lives that align with the gifts He has given us. And just as I dressed up my dolls the way I desired, everything we were given, how we were created and why, are all done to please our Father. Here is what puzzles me:

When we realize, what is purposed in us, and our Father says He really need us to operate in our purpose, we say: “I’m not ready yet!”

So, basically, you’re saying you are not ready to do something that was designed for you to do? That is like my doll telling me: “I don’t like my hair.” First – the doll would be burned and tossed in a dumpster far away from my home – uh uh. Chucky would not become a reality. But if that were the characteristic of the doll to be able to talk back, my reaction, would be one of:  “Who are you? You do realize, I can replace you, right?”

Can you imagine our Father thinking: “I gave you a gift and a purpose and the benefits are for you; but because you are not ready…?”

Since you are not ready, you open the door for the enemy. You know, we talk to God like we have all power and control over our own lives. While we continue to resist, we have the audacity to have a “by the way spirit…”

  • No, I’m not ready, but by the way…can you continue to grant me grace and mercy
  • Can you continue to keep me?
  • Can you continue to give me health to take care of my family?
  • Can you bless me with a spouse?
  • I need this higher paying job; can you open a door?

We intentionally wander through life because we told our Father: “I’m not ready.” If not careful, we soon become lost. We become lost in who we are. We become lost in understanding what a real relationship with Jesus means and what He has done to bring us back to our Father.

Just as I became upset and frustrated when I lost my dolls, our Father became upset when we were lost. In fact, The Bible, from the beginning until the end, proves that God has done everything to find us and for us to find Him – His prized possession. Even Jesus was sent…for us. He sent someone to die just for us to bring us back to Him! Here is how we became lost.

God created this angel named Lucifer. As far as beauty, there was none like Him. He was arrayed in jewels and stones, some of which I have never heard of or seen in today’s time. Lucifer was also a musician. One day, the devil (Lucifer) got beside himself (Ezekiel 28:13-17). He became prideful and conceited. Isaiah 14:12-14 explains how the enemy decided to make his own kingdom and attempt to make it greater than God. When you find out someone is trying to set you up and take what is yours, what would you do? You would have nothing more to do with them. That’s what God, our Father did. He got rid of his enemy. The enemy (Lucifer) and some of the angels that sided with him, lost their place in Heaven. When God created us, satan presented himself with Adam and Eve, so that we could lose out as well.

The enemy wants to destroy us because he can’t get back to that heavenly place. So, the war that has been made is between God and the devil. We, as God’s most precious creation and who he designed especially for himself, happen to be caught in the middle. The enemy attacks God’s most priceless possession- which is you. Yes you- the one who continues to say: “I’m not ready yet.”

Here is what we miss: The enemy has been in heaven. He has been in the presence of our Father. He has even walked in the midst of the Garden of Eden.

Ezekiel 28:13 (NKJV)

You were in Eden, the garden of God; Every precious stone was your covering: The sardius, topaz, and diamond, Beryl, onyx, and jasper, Sapphire, turquoise, and emerald with gold. The workmanship of your timbrels and pipes Was prepared for you on the day you were created.

We have not!

Think about that. The very one who seeks to steal, kill and to destroy you, has been where your Father lives.

Think about this. If you had been in the presence of God – you pretty much know how God is, you know what He can do and you know you what you are up against, right? SATAN knows this! But he also recognizes and is smart enough to realize that we have not valued the relationship that our Father is trying to have with us, through Jesus. The enemy knows that once we get so close to our Father and truly surrender, there is nothing he can do against an all-powerful and all-knowing God; So, the enemy plays tricks on us.

I’ve seen movies where if a person could not get to the one they were trying to hurt, they would hurt their family or the very thing they love the most. That is what the enemy does and is doing. He is trying to upset God by destroying us and he is doing a great job, simply because…” we are not ready yet.”

We fight one another. We kill one another. We abuse our women and molest our children. Our children disrespect adults. He makes us feel depressed and suicidal. We Gossip, debate, argue and hate one another. We find excuses to do what we want and indulge in the lust of the world and we make it convenient for us. We become prideful. All for what? We fall right into the schemes of the devil.

No doubt, the enemy probably calls us stupid because here we have a piece of God – his Spirit, called the holy spirit or the witness to live in us and guide us and we deliberately ignore him because: “We are not ready yet.”


Since you are not ready, what will it take for you to become ready?

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