Have you ever felt that you woke up on the right side of the bed? You meditated, prayed, and somehow had a little extra energy to start the day off right.
I felt that way today. I was determined to feel accomplished and not to allow the mindset of Monday to get the best of me.
I have been able to get through Monday’s a little easier. If you have been reading any of my devotions, you know that Mondays are harder for me emotionally, due to the passing of my mother, 6 months ago.
Today- I closed on the property she lived in…where we found her- my condo. My husband has been all that I could ever ask. I have not been to the property since my mother passed. He handled the showings and everything. I cannot explain how thankful I am for his strength. I am thankful that my children’s memories are all comical. One of my daughters had a moment a few weeks ago. My mother made the girls some quilts by hand. It is something that her mother, my Granny, would always do for the Grandma. The weather has since gotten cold and Asia decided to pull out her quilt. Asia said the quilt had a scent like Nanna’s house and it made her cry in the night. She doesn’t want to wash it. Normally, I would have the ewww face
but I’m okay with her holding on to it for a tad bit longer, without the quilt seeing the washer.
I have had a lump in my throat all day. Tears rolled down my face at the closing. You never know what event will trigger an emotion. I’m already trying to prepare myself for her birthday- January 17th.
Life has a way of making you appreciate her. I feel so inconsistent at times- which is rare from a person who is a professional planner. Spontaneity is not a strength of mine. Things have to make since and occur in chronological order. My emotions have no mental order as of late. I believe that pain pushes us into our purpose and I am eagerly awaiting the purpose of this pain.
Why am I sharing this?
When I feel myself caving in, my Father always sends me a reminder that He is with me. He is with you too. Calamity does not occur in the life of a Christian to make us suffer for no legitimate reason. Everything works together for good. Whether today started off rough, your not so good day is finally ending, or if you are in the midst of the worst day ever…there is someone who can make it better. Oh my Father- thank you for holding my hand today and carrying my heart. I needed you in the worst way, and you were with me.