It’s almost every day that we hear of a tragedy. Death, illnesses, diagnosis, layoffs, unexpected bills, unplanned maintenances and repairs. You name it!
One of my daughters love dance and she’s pretty good at it. So we involve her in activities that cater to her gifts. I decided to sign her up for a dance conference. Since she is under age, I had to attend as her chaperone. The conference is associated with Bishop TD Jakes’ faith and family conference entitled MegaFest.
The timing couldn’t be worse for me and what has taking place personally in my life. You see, I know what his conferences bring and the spiritual refreshing. I was not in a spiritual space to receive any sort of impartation. In case you are unaware, over the past 2 weeks, I’ve been associating devotions with the loss of my mother, who passed on June 12th. So I have not been on my spiritual game. I cannot say that I have been trying to be strong, I’ve just been trying to figure out how to continue on with life. There’s purposes I have to fulfill for my ministry, the church, my children and my husband. The things the Lord is quickly doing in my life, I expected my mother to experience with me. I already don’t have a dad in my life. He exited and left their marriage when I was 4. I’ll explain it differently. Since my mom passed away, there has been a disconnect between God and I. He didn’t move away. Neither did I. I just had not been pressing towards him. I have been still! I had not been talking to Him as much. I had begun to lose my conversation. I felt like I didn’t know what to say to Jesus. The only thing I could think to say without speaking stupid stuff over my life is: “I trust you God.” What we fail to realize is there is power in what we say. Our words plant seeds and the seeds sown produce a fruit. That fruit can be rotten to our soul or nourishment. Just because lack a full understanding of my mother’s death, I’m not stupid to fly off at the mouth to my Father.
Here we are at this conference. The Lord strategically placed me here. After the dance piece ended, we had time to attend the evening session. We attended the opening session of Woman Thou Art Loosed, where Bishop Jakes delivered the message. The Holy Spirit spoke to everything I am facing even NOW- both good and bad; but specifically regarding my mother, Bishop says (paraphrasing):
“This week has been a mess. The enemy has been fighting us all week even up until now. He even attacked my body. When that happened, it was war. I said oh, I know there’s going to be some breakthroughs this week. We have illnesses and deaths. A close friend just lost a loved one and he/she said they are trying to understand. I told them don’t try to understand. Survive it! You will never understand God. He will reveal the why in due time but He is God. He does not need to address your why. SURVIVE IT!”
That resonated with me. I burst into tears. I must and will survive this but I cannot and will not, by withdrawing from my Savior and not allowing The Comforter to minister to me. My soul was ministered to on last evening. I actually already understand why my mom passed suddenly, but I had not accepted it until last evening. I do know why.
Last evening, I recalled to my mind who the Holy Spirit is. He is a gentleman. He is gentle. I had to remember who my Father is. He is close to those whose spirit is broken. He does not desire to see us hurt or to deliberately hurt us.
“God! His way is perfect; the LORD’s word is tried and true. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.” Psalms 18:30 CEB
I had to remember that my mother was HIS daughter before she was my mother. He will bring us out. We will not be casual about our freedom, because God will not and cannot fail. We are confident in His ability to deliver because in all these “things…” things of hurt, depression, anxiety, uncertainty, and whatever other emotion we have, we are MORE than conquerors…BUT. ONLY. THROUGH. CHRIST!
“Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.”Romans 8:37 NKJV
So what are you going to do with what you’re dealing with?
1. Will you give up?
2. Will you be the one the Lord can depend on?
3. Will you do everything you can to live in peace with everyone?
4. Will you seek the good even in a horrible crisis?
Not only should you make a difference in someone else’s life, but yours also.
You can do it!We can do it! Together.
Even in the storm, God has promised to deliver. He has done that for me. Oh God, I love you for your faithfulness on today.
“And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world’s corruption caused by human desires. In view of all this, make every effort to respond to God’s promises. Supplement your faith with a generous provision of moral excellence, and moral excellence with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with patient endurance, and patient endurance with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love for everyone. The more you grow like this, the more productive and useful you will be in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But those who fail to develop in this way are shortsighted or blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their old sins. So, dear brothers and sisters, work hard to prove that you really are among those God has called and chosen. Do these things, and you will never fall away. Then God will give you a grand entrance into the eternal Kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.” 2 Peter 1:4-11 NLT